January 2010
i was right.
nothing ever last, not even love. all i can do is pray to caitlyn, my best friend that everything will be fine. i want to change things but i cant. i’d rather have things this way, its not that things are broken, things are just drifting.
im someone who can make friends easily and can change my mood in a snap. im someone who puts a mask to cover my fears and problems. i fear a lot, thats...
bubble wrap
sick of all those people.
im too nice? im really tired, and i just want happiness. in order to do so, i must do something to change something in the world. the question is what. but not only that, but to all those who take advantage of people who are nice, cant you at least say thanks? we have feelings.
i already know, thanks.
I’m a slut because I’ll wear shorts and a tank top. I’m a bitch because I don’t let you push me around. I’m a liar because I won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes I’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a whore because I fall in love. I’m annoying because I’m not chill enough. I’m a loser because I’m not friends with your group. I’m fake because most of the time...
today waiting in line to get my haircut.
today i saw my friend from school, she was asking weird questions, but im use to it already. i dont really care if people ask me about this things, i mean i cant really lie. so i tell them the truth, in my point of view. she ask where i was going and with who, my answer to my friends, to get dolled up for a party. yeah after all that work party was apparently next week, not this week, so i cant...
today, i got a haircut.
i think my new haircut is actually nice. i think it really suits me. i like how my hair curls and i like it when i don’t comb it. right now while i’m typing this my hair is clipped to the back, i really like it. i know i’m going to be ridicule tomorrow when people see it, but i really really like it. i need to get some kind of moisturizer for my hair, its too dry, but then again...
so far nothing changed.
more hate in the house, usual.
no mother in the house, usual.
rejecting more people, usual.
more crap from friends, usual.
ranting, usual.
oh and exams are faacking annoying!
insomnia still here.
hmmm, lovelife? totally down the drain.
jack sparrow called, unusual.
he wanted to go out, usual.
snowing, unusual.
my love for will turner and jack sparrow grows each time i talk to them....
i want a bow tie.
<3
i want ice cream.
i want to eat myself out. i want to die with a brain freeze.
nuff said.
all true stuff.
my brother is a crack addict.
my sister is a slut.
i hate everything!
fob tingsz
fwmb:
1. Use TENACIOUS in a sentence. I went to the shoe store to buy a pair of TENACIOUS. 2. Use DEDUCT, DEFENSE, DEFEAT, and DETAIL in a sentence. DEDUCT jumped over DEFENSE, first DEFEAT and then DETAIL. 3. Use DEPOSIT in a sentence. I hear dripping in the sink. I think DEPOSIT is leaking. 4. Use PERSUADING in a sentence. Jack and Jill will be celebrating their PERSUADING anniversary. 5. Use...
I LOVE LOVE LOVE GUYS WITH GLASSES
really sexy!
i love nerds
i want to wear black boots with my semi formal...
i don’t care what people say, but i still need to find that dress, LOL. im going to get a haircut and i dunno, die. LOL. and i still need to check on my date =_______=” i dont think he’s going, since its far away. im going to use guilt on him :D
LMFAO! he know i love him x)
i think :/
letting go.
sometimes the best thing is a whisper. its enough just to think, and to move on. doesn’t matter how much you’ve given, its how much you got in return and that moment you gave it. the happiness you truly received. im not letting go ‘cause i cant. you’ll always be with me no matter what, and i thank god for what you’ve given me. i love you and i hope to see you again,...
yummm, soo tasty.
sooo today, i went to the hospital to get my shoulder checked. and i apparently pulled something, and questions came out and no answer. why? ‘cause i didnt do anything to it, it just started to hurt.
anyway after that i went to best buy with my mom to get two laptops checked. shes spazzed on the dude in the counter. really funny! anyway i bought a usb and speakers for my desktop.
i just...
...screw you.
do you really thing i care now?
sure im hurt, but i cant do anything about it
nor will i do something about it.
dear me,
heyy you, dont worry when you read this you’ll be thankful. why you ask, ‘cause it’ll help you when your older. actually not you, but your kid/s. dont do anything you’ll regret, do something you’ll know will benefit you in the future. keep things simple, dont help those who don’t want your hand. things will get complicated and you’ll have a break down. btw...
TRUTH MAY HURT BUT A LIE IS WORST.
learn.
:@
what the hell makes you think we’re different? our gender? what tell me! F***!! i don’t want to keep on doing all this useless crap for someone i know for a fact is not worth it! but you know what makes me keep doing this thing? ‘cause of guilt!!! guilt that you’re suppose to feel, not me! i feel utterly useless whenever im angry at anyone and i really hate that feeling,...
it was by chance, staying was your choice and...
now, dont talk to me like it was my fault, you were the one who fell for me. get that straight, kay? another thing, i told you it was your choice to do what you want and i wasn’t going to take things serious. and i usually say i really really don’t want to get into a relationship that will last a long time. i know what i want in a relationship, and if i dont feel like its right, i will...
mehh
yes, i love you.
but are you really worth it?
im really really tired now so please let me be happy.
i’ll always be here, but for now give me some space please?
i get the feeling a lot now, you know where someone is looking at me from a far distance and just smiling at everything i do. i like it. i don’t need to be anyone but myself with him. so leave me to him for now, kay?
...
peter pan is deep!
no matter how we try to be mature…
we will always be a kid when we all get hurt and cry….
maybe i'll just find someone exactly like you and...
maybe i'll just find someone exactly like you and...
drama again!
YAY! how i love my “friends”. sure i think of them as my friends, but do i really get anything in return? NO. i’m basically getting used over and over again, man how i love that. for all those people out there who are using people, think of what you’re EFFing doing! people can honestly get sick and tired of it and leave you!
do yourself a favour if you’re one of...
movies with my aunts and uncle + one.
just when to the movies with my aunts and uncle + one. +one just saw the people from ilikegrass1, she was starstruck. i dont get that, well actually i do. but still they’re exactly the same as everyone else, except they’re seen in a box :/
right?
jinx
apparently im a jinx. i think its true actually, like i seem to make everyone lose when im around them. then again, i brought a handful of people to their happiest state in life. hmm, so i guess im not :/
gyaldem
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apparantly I look like a girl with a boyfriend named Adam
LOL!
TOO FUNNY!!!
im really glad.
im glad i was there for you
im glad i was the one there for you
im glad i was your friend
im glad for every second i spent with you
im glad for everything
but its time for me to go
cause i know im not needed.
i know im ridiculed
i know im just going to be hurt
i know you’re just using me
i know you. and i see it.
so im violent, but i really cant deal with all of this.
i see...
funny.
its funny how much i love everyone of them even though i never spent the time to actually get to know them. things will just need to keep moving on.
decision.
i’ve decided after exams, i will never hang with my school friends again. im just going to ignoring them, ‘cause its for the best. this decision will hurt the most ‘cause they’re like my family. i think i spent more time with them more than anyone else in this world. but since its just life, moving on will be for the best. i’ll get to know others. i’ll get to...
im really really bored.
maee is my friend (;
shane is tired.
i find everything they do is funny.
mae is interesting.
shane is emo.
im just laughing at them.
mae is farting!
shane is a jackasss
im plain bored.
mae is beautiful!!!!